By him, by life.. and as much as I hate to say this on EASTER SUNDAY of all days, by God.
I’ve been praying through my tears for the past 3 days and I just can’t take this anymore.
I don’t want to go see my family and pretend to be normal.
There’s nothing I can do right now to make me feel any better.
And I don’t even want to talk to my friends because who wants to be depressed on Easter Sunday? hm?
I have to let this out somewhere. And here is the only place where no one knows me. I’m about to break. I always said, I may bend but I will not break, is this it? Is this the breaking point? I made myself vulnerable and I could feel it, and that’s why I was so uncomfortable and I knew right away that I liked him too much for my own good, and now here goes nothing. Now I’m here, alone. I can’t call any of my friends to come get my head out of the ground because they all have school tomorrow. I just want to die.
And as much as I say I value my life now, that’s all that ever comes out of my mouth when I cry now. “God, let me die. Please just let me die.”
Which Disney Princess Are You?
[x] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like.
 You’ve been lost in the forest.
[x] You love to read.
 You are not shy at all.
 One of your family members is a bit weird.
[x] You have done volunteer work.
[x] You have a wild imagination.
[x] You love to take care of people in need.
[x] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty.
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out.
 You’re an orphaned child or have an evil mother.
[x] You have many different hobbies to keep you busy.
[x] You can get really bored.
[x] You have very long hair.
[x] Your hair is/was bright blonde.
[x] You’re an artsy person.
[x] You’re childish.
[x] You can’t wait to stop the same routine each day and start living.
[x] You care about others and their feelings.
[x] You like to follow the rules.
 You have/had a pet rabbit.
 You love to play cards.
 You constantly know the time.
 You get yourself in sticky situations.
 You have been to a court.
[x] You have fallen asleep while doing your homework.
[x] You have had a tea party.
 You like hats.
 You’re late.
[x] You know how to play croquet.
 Your dad is rich.
 You are very clever.
 You’ve been with someone way different from you.
 You’d never marry someone just because they were rich.
[x] You have set a lot of goals for yourself.
 You don’t have a lot of (good) friends.
[x] You’re independent.
 You are wealthy.
 Your parents try to control your life.
 Your boyfriend/crush is strong.
 You have gotten involved with the wrong people before.
 You are very convincing.
[x] You have fallen in love before.
 You have had your heart broken.
 You find an interest in Greek mythology.
 You lie sometimes.
 You pretend to be someone you’re not.
 You have been used.
 Purple is one of your favorite colors.
[x] Your parents expect a lot from you.
 You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you.
 You’re a bit of a trouble maker.
[x] You love to swim.
 Your favorite animal is some sort of sea creature.
[x] You collect something.
[x] You have/had long hair.
[x] You are adventurous.
[x] You’re extremely curious.
[x] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible.
 You live/have lived with someone other than your parents.
 You almost died at a very young age.
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful.
 You have a decent singing voice.
 You like to sleep in late on the weekend.
 You spend most of your time outside.
 You’re adopted.
[x] You’re very romantic.
[x] Pink is one of your favorite colors.
 One of your parents is dead.
 You are expected to do a lot of chores.
[x] You love to dress up.
[x] You love animals.
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming.
 Your mom is really strict.
 You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you.
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes.
[x] You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before.
[x] You have/had blonde hair.
 Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you.
 You’ve almost been killed.
[x] You have at least seven good friends.
 You’ve had food poisoning.
 You have/had short hair.
[x] You get along with almost everyone.
 All of your friends are different.
[x] You love to have a good time.
 You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in.
[x] You get jealous easily.
[x] You loved your childhood.
[x] You like to fly.
[x] You believe in magic.
[x] You’re 5’2” or under.
 You hate pirates.
[x] You love sparkles.
[x] People underestimate you.|
 You get angry easily.
 You have/had a treehouse.
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities.
 You are more spiritual than religious.
 You’ve been in an interracial relationship.
 One of your family members is dead.
[x] Your parents are very protective of you.
[x] Someone you know has been in the war.
[x] You love nature.
 You have/had black hair.
x You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful.
[x] You’re very adventurous.
 You can be a tomboy sometimes.
 People wish you could be a bit more girly.
 You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not.
 You’ve had a physical fight with someone.
 You have/had considered running away from home.
 Your parents try to plan your life out.
 A lot of your friends are boys.
 You sometimes find yourself in bad situations.
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them